So I was told about this thing called Morning Pages at the London Screenwriters' Festival Talent Campus that I was on a few days ago and I thought it was an interesting concept concept so I figured why not give it a try.
It's supposed to help you clear your mind for the day ahead and act as a bit of a brain dump of everything that's in your head at the moment. I don't think it has to really make much sense, but you have to write about 3 pages, I think he said. Maybe after today's one I'll have a look at what it says online, what other people, or rather how other people are doing it because it might just be a time limit or something...
I found this concept of morning pages quite interesting because it almost sounds like a newspaper. Except it's a newspaper just for you. It's a newspaper, or more like a newsletter about how you, or rather I am feeling when I wake up... It's an interesting exercise I would like to share.
I think maybe I'm being too controlled in my approach to this and I'm not doing a very good job of letting all of my brain fartiness out, so to speak. I need to be putting on here everything that I deem unnecessary to be thinking about of to take me forward for the rest of the day. Though I think I am trying, I just get ahead of myself faster than I can write. I'm trying to crack my neck, limber myself up as if that is going to help my brain capacity in any way. I don't know what I need to do to give myself something to write about. I think I've frightened my brain away. It usually loves to go around and round with non sequential things that are either out of control in the past or non existent in the future, yet here it is now at a total blank. Although I can feel the on set of a headache. I don't know whether this is because I've barely touched my coffee or that my brain is working far too hard for it's liking this early in the morning...
The thing with this just being a brain dumping all over the page is that I'm not sure if it's because I'm thinking too fast and trying to keep up or just that I've put a lot of tension in my arm that it feels like - no, not quite the right sentence... a) my arm hurts because I'm writing too quickly because I'm thinking too fast or b) that I've put a lot of unnecessary stress and tension into it, which I think I have done in the past. My handwriting is getting progressively worse. So maybe it's a lot of both to some degree. I don't really know what else to say, again my mind is just blank besides the things I am writing out here and I have the lyrics to Feels by Calvin Harris in my head now. That's going to be there a while. I shouldn't have said lyrics, more the song playing in my head. I do wonder if there is at least a version of this in which you time yourself because I don't know how long I've been writing for but it's definitely long enough for my coffee to get cold... I'm wondering whether to go to another fourth page as I approach the end of the third, but there are other things on my mind right now... I probably should have looked into this before I started. I don't think the concept is that hard to get however, but some of the finer details I think should be known. It's just made me think about something else I can do on my website which hasn't been updated in a long time, but I think I should do something before the festival. I mean I say I should, but I know I'm going to because it just has to be done.
Something about window shopper. I still have Feels in my head - the song not my emotions. It was an intermission thing, I think. I wasn't thinking about anything else so my brain just filled the space. But really as I'm writing and thinking, it's background noise in the back of my brain, just underneath the surface of what I was thinking in the forefront so when I stop thinking in the forefront, it comes to the forefront as if you have this music playing in a room you are having a conversation in and when you stop talking you are able to hear the music better. I'm going to have to listen to feels after this to try and get it out of my head then all of a sudden I've got Kylie Can't Get You Outta My Head in my head, but the difference being Kylie will pass. Feels will pop back in and it kind of just has done, no you've gone for a moment and I think Kylie has. I don't think I'm quiet enough for either one to come through at the moment. I guess I'll know when I stop writing. So yeah, I'm going to do this hopefully everyday. Anything of use or whatever I might just put up on the website. I don't know what the finer details of it is so I'm going to research into that and I've had a good idea for some of the other things I have written and am now going to put them up on my website as well. I need to find my little outline plan thing for it because I was restructuring my website and I had it written down somewhere. I will find it, but in the meantime, this has been my first morning pages. Hopefully it will get better tomorrow. Better isn't what I mean.