diary of sam (and other people)
called to tell me what exactly was going on, but even then it didn’t really make sense. I don’t know if I’m supposed to be happy or sad about it. It seems to be something that can be worked on though. I guess that’s a good thing. For the time being, I guess it’s best not to think about it.
THURSDAY 18TH JUNE
Ok, so I said I wouldn’t think about it, but of course I did. I always do. I’m seeing it more positively though. I’m happy that there is something to look forward to. Plus there’s the leaving party I’m having tomorrow night and far too many people are coming, which is always fun. I still haven’t packed everything yet, but my mum made me do a checklist. I also need to finish buying the stuff for tomorrow as well. Got to get a move on.
One lot of party stuff done. Check. Packing done. Check. Kind of. I’m so exhausted. It’s been such a long day. I swear the older I get the quicker I get tired. I know, I know, all this shit doesn’t help either. Trying so hard to look past it. Just a few more days and a party in between. I guess I can’t complain.
TO TOMORROW!
FRIDAY 19TH JUNE
Just two more sleeps ‘til I go. So looking forward to it. Plus, party time tonight. Sal’s coming and she’s bringing all the boys down, which should be fun. I’m gonna miss them lot. Don’t get sad! I haven’t seen them since god knows when I don’t know if I’ll be able to handle it. Oh, the excitement!
Ooo, Sam I have your diary! Well aren’t you a boring sod. No juicy gossip for me. Boo! You clearly tell me everything. I guess that’s a good thing. I saw you talking to Milo earlier - but I guess you’ll tell me about that later. Actually, there’s a few things I’d like to tell you and I guess this is as good a time as any since you’re busy having fun downstairs. I think I’m in love with Tom. I know what you’re going to say about that but this isn’t just a passing thing. I mean it. I know we haven’t seen eye to eye on him in the past, but since he’s been back, I don’t know, it’s different, no? I’m sure you’ve seen it too. Ok, it’s been a week, but there is something about him, something that’s changed and I think he’s in a good place now, the right place for us.
Anyway, I know you’re gonna hate me for like 2 seconds for reading your diary, but you’ll get over it. Love ya!
When the fuck did you start writing a diary?!?! I didn’t take you for a diary person to be honest. I can’t believe Sal is in love with Tom. What the fuck! No, I can. She’s stupid like that.
P.S. You shouldn’t leave your diary out, loser.
Ha ha. I love this. I can’t believe you’ve just left your diary out. Don’t worry, I haven’t read any of it. I can’t imagine your life to be all that interesting. LOL JK. Though I do have something to confess and this is a good a place as any. I’m having an abortion on Tuesday and it’s one of the guys’ baby. I bet you can’t guess whose it is! Fuck, I bet you can’t guess who I am.
Someone’s having a baby and in the meantime everyone’s drinking… Or are they?... I’m going to investigate and get back to you...
I’m so lonely.
Who is that pussy?! Looks like a dude’s handwriting. And who the fuck is preggers. I bet it’s Sal. She’s been all over fucking Tom all night. He doesn’t love her. Everybody’s fucked her. I bet if she’s up the duff she doesn’t know who the dad is. She’s a slut. Sorry Sam, but you know it’s true. Great party though.
Shut the fuck up. Whoever the fuck you are, you don’t know shit. You’re the pussy writing in here instead of saying it to Sal’s face. And don’t think I don’t know who this is, because I do.
I hate every single one of you motherfuckers here. I don’t even know why I’m here. You can all die for all I care. I’m getting out of here.
FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT!
Note to Sam: That was messy!
SAM! Oh my god, where are you?! This party is getting out of hand. And who the fuck thought I was pregnant? If it was Dan or Steve I’m gonna kill them!
P.S. I’m not pregnant - you’d be the first to know x
So Dan and Steven have just left… Did one of these two just write that fucked up entry? That’s pretty messed up if either of them did.
I’m not gonna lie, I did read a few pages, not much, I was just curious. Don’t worry, I’m not gonna tell the others what I read, but I do want to say that I hope you’re ok and if you ever need to talk, I know you’ve got Sal, but I’m here for you as well. I’ve been through some similar shit so, well, yeah, just let me know.CX
CX? Or C x? Oh, I’ve got your number. That was Chris right? I wasn’t going to read this but the mysterious “Cx” (it’s soooo you Chris) intrigued me. I just want to repeat what they said, if you need to talk, I’m here - we all would be, so no need to sign off!
I never knew how fucked up my friends were! Sal can do so much better than Tom, he’s still a douche. He just tried to kiss me. I didn’t even know Sal was still into him, but she’s a friend so of course I didn’t go there. Tom is a tool and I’m gonna tell Sal that. I’m gonna tell her everything. There’s a reason why he came on to me and I’m gonna tell her. You’re so close to her she’ll probably tell you anyway and I understand if you don’t want to talk to me again after I tell her, but I hope you guys can forgive me. It was a long time ago and we’re all so close now. I wouldn’t hurt you intentionally, but I have to tell you guys. I’m so sorry for everything. I love you like sisters. You’re my best friends. I just
Bros before hoes!
You’re all fucking sick and perverse. It’s incestuious how you guys all fuck each other. Talking about “sisters”. You’re all fucking hoes.
I second the above.
It doesn’t seem like there’s too many decent guys left on this planet.
I’m so drunk.
You’re so cool.
Fuck you!
Well that escalated quickly.
So I’ve been watching everyone drink and I’m pretty sure they’re all drinking alcohol. I don’t know, I could be a bit too drunk myself. Maybe I’m the pregnant one *gasp* haha… MORE ALCOHOL!
So I didn’t want to get left out in writing in your diary (seriously?! You have a diary!?) I don’t know some of the people here, but I recognise a couple of the handwritings. Some of this stuff is not cool man. There’s always at least one psychopath in the group. I can assure you it’s not me.
I’m so sorry
Guess who’s baaaaaack… I never left… One of you fuckers is gonna die tonight…
Sam, don’t leave your diary out…
SATURDAY 20TH JUNE